oh god

[elsajeni]

The subject line says it all really. Oh God. Normally parties do not make me nervous; however when in new-relationship-shock EVERYTHING makes me nervous, so I went nervously to my friend's party last night... met many interesting people, ex-girlfriend and girlfriend were both there (especially interesting since ex is making it no secret that she's kinda jealous). So since there were so many wonderful people there, most of whom I already knew pretty well, I calmed down soon enough, and by, oh, 9 or so I was calm enough that I was just sorta draped on the couch with my girlfriend. This basically continued for a couple hours; then her mom got there early to pick her up (I wish more of my friends had driver's licenses; also cars). So... I don't know what her mom saw. I don't think there really was anything to see; we were both kinda half-asleep, and though we were lying on the couch together I would like to emphasize that everyone was fully clothed and nothing sexual was actually going on (at least, not on our end of the couch; can't vouch for Anya's side of the room...). But her mom doesn't (or didn't, at least) know that there's anything going on between us more than friendship. My apologies for the incoherence of this entry; obviously I am somewhat... something. I don't know. Worried? Generally frazzled? Exhausted? All three? Anyway. Sorry if this doesn't make any sense; it doesn't necessarily make sense to me either.
There is no valid explanation for why I'm editing this entry instead of just posting a new one... oh well, there's no valid explanation for a lot of things I do. Please disregard first part of this entry, was in state of minor panic only partly related to the actual incident I wrote about... just in that sort of mood today. So... pretend it's not there OK? (So why am I not just deleting it? Ugh, don't want to think of a rational explanation for that. Make one up yourself.)

Comments

[flyingdrake.livejournal.com]

it's okay to be a bit frazzled. you don't come off as being too incoherent. my mom didn't see anything, don't worry. about the car thing.. yeah you are an encentive to getting a lisence.- Summer

[driftingfocus.livejournal.com]

THis is Kelsey. WHo is this?

[elsajeni.livejournal.com]

*waves at Kelsey* This is Betsy. (Yay! Somebody other than Summer actually read the damn thing!)