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elsajeniSo the big competition of the year (Houston-area, anyway) was yesterday. I took first. Whee. Big deal. I was kind of expecting it and I don't feel I deserved it. The girl who took second and I are entirely equal as harpists; we tied last year. The only reason she played her free-choice piece not quite as well as I did is that she picked a more difficult and intense piece than I did. And she was kind of upset; she really was hoping to win this year. And she deserved to. And she didn't. So I really kind of wish I hadn't won, or at least had tied with her.
On the other hand in terms of harpness, the audition for Houston Youth Symphony is in less than 2 weeks now, on May 4. So of course I'm absolutely stressing out about it. That's ridiculous. I'm a very good harpist, and I'm pretty sure I'm the only one auditioning anyway. I'm only worried about one of my audition pieces, and my friend Kate, who was their harpist last year, told me that they only listened to her first piece so I should just play my better piece first and I'd be fine. But I'm still stressing out ridiculously about it. I shouldn't even be trying out. Practices are on Sunday afternoons, for 3 hours, and even though they probably won't need the harp for all the practices that's just more time than I have to give. At least it's not a weekday. Another orchestra I've heard about in the Houston area practices twice a week, on school nights, which would make me die, so I'm not even thinking about that one. But this is too much. I shouldn't audition, but it's too late for that now.
God. There are a lot of things I want to talk about right now. But I don't have time for any of them; I need to just get to sleep. Ugh. I hate the dentist, today I went in to have a cavity filled, waited twenty minutes for anyone to pay attention to me (this lying tilted head-downward in one of those stupid chairs), then when she came in she said, "Wait, that's not the tooth that it's listed as on her chart." Turns out I got a dentist assistant who can't count. And still she was the one trusted to stick a drill in my mouth. But for some reason the topical anesthesia was pineapple flavored, so that's all right.
I'm off to go and sleep now. Goodbye.
On the other hand in terms of harpness, the audition for Houston Youth Symphony is in less than 2 weeks now, on May 4. So of course I'm absolutely stressing out about it. That's ridiculous. I'm a very good harpist, and I'm pretty sure I'm the only one auditioning anyway. I'm only worried about one of my audition pieces, and my friend Kate, who was their harpist last year, told me that they only listened to her first piece so I should just play my better piece first and I'd be fine. But I'm still stressing out ridiculously about it. I shouldn't even be trying out. Practices are on Sunday afternoons, for 3 hours, and even though they probably won't need the harp for all the practices that's just more time than I have to give. At least it's not a weekday. Another orchestra I've heard about in the Houston area practices twice a week, on school nights, which would make me die, so I'm not even thinking about that one. But this is too much. I shouldn't audition, but it's too late for that now.
God. There are a lot of things I want to talk about right now. But I don't have time for any of them; I need to just get to sleep. Ugh. I hate the dentist, today I went in to have a cavity filled, waited twenty minutes for anyone to pay attention to me (this lying tilted head-downward in one of those stupid chairs), then when she came in she said, "Wait, that's not the tooth that it's listed as on her chart." Turns out I got a dentist assistant who can't count. And still she was the one trusted to stick a drill in my mouth. But for some reason the topical anesthesia was pineapple flavored, so that's all right.
I'm off to go and sleep now. Goodbye.
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Date: 2002-04-23 03:10 pm (UTC)