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May. 25th, 2006 11:19 amYou know, when I woke up this morning, I had elaborate plans for today.
Then I stood up and remembered that I had forgotten to take an Effexor yesterday and was about an hour off-schedule for taking one today.
Okay. Fine. I still have elaborate plans for today. Just, instead of things like "grocery shopping" and "scheduling job interview," they now include things like "fall down a lot" and "take a nap".
Edit: You know, the more this happens (which it does on a semi-regular basis, like, once every 3 or 4 months, because I'm sort of an idiot with regard to doing things on a routine basis, which is kind of impressive considering that the reason I take the shit at all is for OCD), the more pissed off I get about it. Honestly -- I take a medication, and probably will every day for the rest of my life, that is supposed to make me more capable of functioning as a human being. For the most part, it does. Unless, on ONE DAY, I forget to take it, in which case, it renders me completely incapable of functioning until about 5 hours after I take the next one. I know, intellectually, that it's not really that bad. I mean, big damn deal, my medication causes withdrawal symptoms, just act like an adult about it (take it on time, call in refills on time, deal with stupid heinous tangle of insurance forms and referrals from other doctors and such required to make an appointment with a shrink, which will last exactly as long as it takes him to scribble out a new prescription and yet cost a semi-ridiculous amount, I'm sorry, I think this parenthetical remark got a little off-topic) and it won't be a problem, but at the same time, it pisses me off that this is, and probably will be for the rest of my life, the best option I have.
Also, my shrink, delightfully, didn't bother to mention any of the negative aspects of Effexor when I switched to it, about a year and a half ago, or at any other time before or since. Before that, I was on a medication that was fairly effective, but left me with just enough OCD symptoms to be a pain in the ass. I got asked to make an "informed" decision about whether I wanted to switch from that to something that would probably be more effective. But if you're going to ask me to make an informed decision... inform me. For fuck's sake.
Then I stood up and remembered that I had forgotten to take an Effexor yesterday and was about an hour off-schedule for taking one today.
Okay. Fine. I still have elaborate plans for today. Just, instead of things like "grocery shopping" and "scheduling job interview," they now include things like "fall down a lot" and "take a nap".
Edit: You know, the more this happens (which it does on a semi-regular basis, like, once every 3 or 4 months, because I'm sort of an idiot with regard to doing things on a routine basis, which is kind of impressive considering that the reason I take the shit at all is for OCD), the more pissed off I get about it. Honestly -- I take a medication, and probably will every day for the rest of my life, that is supposed to make me more capable of functioning as a human being. For the most part, it does. Unless, on ONE DAY, I forget to take it, in which case, it renders me completely incapable of functioning until about 5 hours after I take the next one. I know, intellectually, that it's not really that bad. I mean, big damn deal, my medication causes withdrawal symptoms, just act like an adult about it (take it on time, call in refills on time, deal with stupid heinous tangle of insurance forms and referrals from other doctors and such required to make an appointment with a shrink, which will last exactly as long as it takes him to scribble out a new prescription and yet cost a semi-ridiculous amount, I'm sorry, I think this parenthetical remark got a little off-topic) and it won't be a problem, but at the same time, it pisses me off that this is, and probably will be for the rest of my life, the best option I have.
Also, my shrink, delightfully, didn't bother to mention any of the negative aspects of Effexor when I switched to it, about a year and a half ago, or at any other time before or since. Before that, I was on a medication that was fairly effective, but left me with just enough OCD symptoms to be a pain in the ass. I got asked to make an "informed" decision about whether I wanted to switch from that to something that would probably be more effective. But if you're going to ask me to make an informed decision... inform me. For fuck's sake.