hi

[elsajeni]

So... this is kinda weird, I'm not used to writing a journal where other people can actually read it. Bear with me; I'm naturally reserved (well, mostly). So... I don't really know what to say. I feel foolish. Main reason I started this thing is a bunch of my friends have them, also I'm out of school for summer now and have time to get online and update the thing. Also I am in a REALLY good mood at the moment; will probably not write much in this thing when I'm in a bad mood, because I tend to not get online but instead sit around sulking. So expect to see lots of happy entries for a few days, then nothing for a few days, then happy entries again. The main reason I'm in a good mood right now is all of a sudden I have a girlfriend... I'm not entirely sure how this happened. I've had a thing for her for quite a while now... absolutely did not expect it to be reciprocated... but what do you know, it was. So... she's kinda my first real girlfriend, the previous one was more a confirmation (along the lines of, gee, am I REALLY bi?) than an actual relationship. Also it ended really badly; hopefully this time things will work out a little better. So, I'm still kinda in shock about that, but I've recovered enough to be shocked and thrilled at the same time. (Eep... sudden horror... boyfriend does not know about this yet. Oh well, his computer's broken, he's unlikely to read it here. If anyone who reads this knows him please don't tell him until I have a chance to talk to him about it, OK?) I guess I've kinda run out of stuff to say... will update further later.