hi

[elsajeni]

So... this is kinda weird, I'm not used to writing a journal where other people can actually read it. Bear with me; I'm naturally reserved (well, mostly). So... I don't really know what to say. I feel foolish. Main reason I started this thing is a bunch of my friends have them, also I'm out of school for summer now and have time to get online and update the thing. Also I am in a REALLY good mood at the moment; will probably not write much in this thing when I'm in a bad mood, because I tend to not get online but instead sit around sulking. So expect to see lots of happy entries for a few days, then nothing for a few days, then happy entries again. The main reason I'm in a good mood right now is all of a sudden I have a girlfriend... I'm not entirely sure how this happened. I've had a thing for her for quite a while now... absolutely did not expect it to be reciprocated... but what do you know, it was. So... she's kinda my first real girlfriend, the previous one was more a confirmation (along the lines of, gee, am I REALLY bi?) than an actual relationship. Also it ended really badly; hopefully this time things will work out a little better. So, I'm still kinda in shock about that, but I've recovered enough to be shocked and thrilled at the same time. (Eep... sudden horror... boyfriend does not know about this yet. Oh well, his computer's broken, he's unlikely to read it here. If anyone who reads this knows him please don't tell him until I have a chance to talk to him about it, OK?) I guess I've kinda run out of stuff to say... will update further later.

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[flyingdrake.livejournal.com]

betsy look you really should tell him. i'm shocked that you hadn't. remember i want to at least talk to him myself and see how he is taing this. we really have to be open about this to your boyfriend, i know he is okay with an open relationship.. in principle. however i think it is imparitive that you tell him and soon because i don't want to participate in his deception. I'll see you soon, hopefully today before Bryan's party,
Summer

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Dearest B,

I find relationships with someone of the same gender are very difficult to think about in certin happenings.

And in many cases very frightening for the fact that you can never be really one hundred percent certin what your friends and family will do as a reaction to this.

But, in some cases I can just suggest as a friend doing what you believe to be the best case thing.

Also as a friend, I can only suggest the following: Do what you believe to be the best. And only you.

Thank you for your time.

Sincerly,
S.

[doplegager.livejournal.com]

It's rather interesting to look back on things... one of the nifty abilities that journals bestow upon us, I guess... a journey into the past to view what we thought and felt. I'm sorry I wasn't able to congratulate you on your romantic relationship with Summer before it was practically over...

well, I am thankful that you wanted to be the one to let me into the loop. At the very least these things need so be said by the people involved.